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HI..

aku tak tau mane nak mula.. aku mula rase takot utk m'langkah dlm reality ini.. org kate dah tibe mase utk aku belaja cari duit sendiri dgn serius.. aku takot.. takot dgn reality ini.. mcm mane kalo aku tak sebagos yg aku bayangkan.. well, mmg aku slalu puji diri sendiri, sebab aku nak nmpk yg aku pon mampu buat ape saje cam org lain.. tapi skarang i feel not!! aku tak mampu utk bwk kereta, nak ambik lesen pon takot.. this is my opinion, org yg tak mampu bwk kereta adalah org yg takot akan diri sendiri dan merupakan manusia yg plg kurang keyakinan.. am'i right..

aku ade impian.. nak belaja n b'kerja d'luar negara.. n i thing, my English is quite good too.. but every time i did my MUET exam i get lost.. i can't handle my nerves, damm!! speeking paper is the danger for me.. and i'm also nerves on listening and writing.. just because of my grammar n spelling.. for my reading paper, i thing i can handle it.. sebab dah byk tingok cite korea in eng sub.. also LOVE to watch The Vampire Diaries and Once Upon the Time.. no subtitle!!..

i feel sad.. sume yg aku rancang tak berjalan lancar.. aku tak mampu tangani rase takot sendiri.. ini kan pula nak belaja kat juar negare.. jauh dr mak and ayah.. tak ade ape yg blh kurangkan nerves aku ni.. org kate kite kene relex, n i'm try.. but it doesn't work.. yes i'm cry, because i'm a LOSER!!..

nak jadi mcm org lain, tapi tak mampu.. ape yg aku dpt cume memalukan diri sendiri je.. so i thing want to give up.. but i also don't know how, it's stupid right.. some time i thing maybe is better if i'm not here.. or some times i thing that maybe i just on the wrong way, wrong times, and wrong place.. utk sedapkan hati.. yeh, it's just my destiny.. Tuhan m'beri dugaan hanya pd hambanya yang mampu dan stp dugaan itu ada hikmah disebaliknya.. aku harab, ayat ini akan sentiase menenangkan jiwa aku bile stp kali aku d'timpa musibah.. well, for this time.. it's really comfort me, nobody can do that..

Thanks to God who really with me all time.. i'll not to forget you anymore.. i'll try harder..